Loot Meltdown

I ran LFR with some guildies last night. If you follow me on Twitter and happened to be up and reading it, you may have witnessed my little loot meltdown. I have since deleted most of it, as it was childish and I am embarrassed.

In the first half of Dragon Soul, only one piece of loot I could even use, a tier token, dropped. I did not win it.

Over the course of that first half, several guild mates got various upgrades, tier tokens, etc. This continued into the second half of DS. Another tier token dropped. I did not win it. I had said in Vent, when the loot windows popped up, “If I don’t win that helm token I’m rage quitting.” Well…a guild mate won it. And I was unable to be happy for him. I was angry, and frustrated, and raging at RNG. I whispered my closest guild friend “I suppose it would be poor form to rage quit over a guildie winning that, huh?”

We got to Madness, and Deathwing dropped Kiril, Fury of Beasts, which is an awesome polearm. One of my guild mates rolled need (a druid, so he got the +role bonus on it) specifically so that I would have an extra shot at winning it. He won, and traded it to me. That was very nice of him, and it felt good to not be empty handed at the end of my weekly LFR, for once.

But I’ve been sitting here thinking about my absolute rage over LFR loot. It is actually worse, I’ve found, when I run with people from my guild. This does not make me feel like a particularly good person. Instead of being happy for my friends getting upgrades, I just get more and more jealous and butthurt about RNG hating me. As I sit here pondering this and feeling pretty much like an asshole about it, I’ve come up with at least one reason for it.

Most, if not all, of the guild folks who are likely to be in the group running LFR on Tuesday nights are part of the regular 10 man that runs on Wednesdays and Thursdays. They have their weekly opportunity for loot from every boss in LFR, plus a weekly opportunity for something from whatever bosses they get through on Normal mode. I am a backup/standby person for that raid. So I go into every Tuesday with the distinct possibility that LFR will be my only chance at raid loot for the week. So every roll that I lose is another week of waiting to try again.

Now, one could argue that the folks who are part of the regular 10 man need the gear more than I do. That’s a good argument. They’re getting more “use” out of it. Sitting here now not in the middle of watching my once a week chance at tier gear slip away, I absolutely get that. But jealousy and frustration at the nature of RNG and the one chance per week nature of LFR loot does not make for rational thought.

An additional frustration of LFR loot is that every week, you have the same chance at winning. Every week you are rolling against a new group of strangers. When you are part of a regular raid group, you still go plenty of weeks without getting any new gear. However, you also know that as your raid team gears up, your chances of getting your tier tokens or other gear that might be shared among other classes increases. Your chances in LFR never increase. I might roll on hunter tokens every week from now until Mists of Pandaria comes out, and never win one, because there will always be another person in the LFR group still building their tier set as well.

I don’t know if there’s a solution to this problem. I do wish there was a possibility of rolling on things more than once per week in LFR. Maybe keep it that you can only win loot off a given boss once per week, but you can roll more often. Once a day, maybe. Now that all the world firsts are over, I don’t think there should be worry about people gearing up “too fast”.

If I want to keep enjoying LFR – and I do actually enjoy it – I need to somehow let go of this anger about gear. Phase one of this effort is gearing up the rest of my 85s (mage, priest, druid) to be LFR ready. Which really will just put me in the position of losing more rolls every week, most likely. But maybe if I’m doing it on characters who’ve never raided before, as opposed to my beloved hunter, it will feel a little less shitty. We shall see.


Going backward to move forward

I have two level 85 healers, my priest Eularia and my druid Zylphia. Eularia I leveled to 80 largely by healing dungeons, but then did not heal at all from 80-85 because of all the horror stories about how hard Cataclysm dungeons were. Zylphia has healed to 85.

I want to get them both to the point of at least being able to LFR, if not do the occasional guild run. Given that on Wednesday our guild 10 man had 3 druid healers, I figure I will start with the priest.

Right now she’s wearing mostly PVP gear, which means her iLevel is actually high enough for the Dragon Soul heroics. But, I haven’t healed much on her in awhile, and I am feeling very unsure. So I have come up with a plan, and a project.

I’m going to craft her a Spiritmend set. It’s pretty low iLevel, low enough to force me back to normals. But that’s ok. I want to gear up through the dungeon finder in something like a “normal” progression. It’s something I haven’t really done this entire expansion, and it seems like a good, controlled way to get myself back into the groove of Disc healing. If I get to a point where I really feel comfortable moving to heroics but my gear isn’t quite there yet, then I will add in a PVP piece or two to bump up my iLevel. But I want to feel like a competent, confident healer before I do that.

I really enjoy healing, and I miss it. I am hopeful that this plan will get me back into it.

Ah, my guildies

I was cleaning up my screenshots folder today, to kill some time waiting for some reports to run. In the process I came across this collection of images, in the popular theme of “Shit my guild says.”

1. Damn dirty gnomes…
I made an exception for the Lilli Clones of Punt THIS!, but in general this sums up my feelings on gnomes rather well.

2. Guild achievement first, sexy fun time later?
Guildmate Epilepsy and I were both in the position of having 199 cooking recipes, so we needed the Seafood Magnifique recipe to get Iron Chef. Everyone online at the time was recruited to start fishing from pools, as we were about 2000 catches away from the necessary guild achievement. I was waiting for my boyfriend to come home…

3. Booooooone Stooooooorm
Speaking of my boyfriend, he’s not very good about reading guild chat while he’s playing. I am Eularia in this exchange.

4. Why IS that ogre there?
My guild, putting the ass in class.

5. Speaking of ass…
Sometimes you just have to go for the easy jokes.

6. That’s not what we meant by “reputation grind”
Given the frequency of jokes about Boyd’s mom, I’m pretty surprised this was the only screenshot I have containing one.

7. And one last “your mom” joke

And that’s all for now. I keep kicking around some ideas for more substantive posts, but they seem to float away as soon as I’m actually in front of the computer. Maybe some day.

A Very Gnomish Pilgrim’s Bounty

Last night, the Lillis got together to eat delicious food. And torment the Horde. It was amazing fun.

We started the evening getting everyone together in the Stormwind feast area.

From there with some help from the lovely members of Amicus Fidelis, we were teleported to Silvermoon City. The pale elves were terribly unhappy to see us, but we ate their food anyway.
Silvermoon City

Once we were done in Silvermoon, it was time to head to Orgrimmar. Unfortunately most of us arrived still flagged for PVP, so we got to spend some quality time as ghost-Lilli.
Ghosts of Orgrimmar

I think that is Orcish for “What in the sweet hell is going on here?”

The arrival of a candy colored bear was something of a surprise.

But it turned out he was there to entertain us. Much nicer than those other people who killed us.

Soon he was joined by another bear. (Who, as an aside, joined us and came to Thunder Bluff. At one point s/he said “Ok guys, what’s really going on here? Is this like a guild thing or are you guys some sort of cult?”)

And THEN, the candy colored bears friend joined the dance party.

Soon it was time to say goodbye to our dancing friends, and we gathered below Thunder Bluff.
Thunder Bluff

We enjoyed their delicious food, and the locals left us alone.
Thunder Bluff noms

But then we decided to follow Cyn up the elevator.
Certain doom

This was not the best of ideas. (But it was totally worth it.)
Dead Lillimae

This Death Knight came running over to us where we were gathered beneath Thunder Bluff. And then she slowly backed away.
I think we freaked her out

Our next and final stop was Undercity. We thought for sure we were headed for certain death, but it was strangely empty.

And here is the end of our journey. It was a ton of fun. Thanks so much to the members of Amicus Fidelis for carting us around.
Goodnight, Undercity

Additional pictures from the festivities can be found at Tree Heals Go Woosh and Punt THIS!

Floor Tanking

For quite some time, any time my guild did Baradin Hold, I would die horribly on Occu’thar. Whenever he did his focus fire thing, my computer would freak the hell out and get all laggy, and by the time I was able to attempt to move out of the fire, I would be dead. The last time we went, I turned all my WoW settings all the way down, and survived the encounter.

I was just going through my screenshot folder, and came upon this little gem. It must have been summer, otherwise the floor surely would have tasted like bourbon.


I just don’t know…

I have tried to start a blog before. It did not last very long. Perhaps this one will be different, it’s impossible to say.

I spend a great deal of time playing World of Warcraft. My “main” is a Night Elf hunter named Maeli, but at this point she is my main only in that she has the most achievements and is the only one I raid on. I am not currently playing her outside of raiding at all – and I don’t raid very often. I am on standby for my guilds main 10 man group, and that’s it.

I spend most of my game time lately on any of my small army of alts. I just recently joined the Gnome Clones of Punt This. My clone is Lillimae, a priest, who is currently level 12. I was getting really demoralized trying to level her until I realized the solution – get the hell out of Dun Morogh/Loch Modan. I’ve moved over to Westfall and will probably fly through to 24 now that I’m not in zones I don’t much care for.

I have a lot of things I want to say about Warcraft, I guess we will see if I can actually manage to get them written down, or if they’ll stay floating around in my brain. And so my latest blog experiment begins.